Something never ending that stays with me on and on.
Months pass by and everything is the same.
All of my good days drift into hard ones filled with dismay.
I tell myself tomorrow is the day.
But tomorrow comes then before I can change it goes away.
My desire to become myself grows more and more.
So close but so far, I wonder what I have in store.
The life I crave is getting closer each day.
All I've ever wanted is to be seen.
Not as a shadow but as me.
I need to find something to live for.
I can't keep being this small invisible person anymore.
I've been basing my life off of what other people think.
I wish I could redo my brother's trouble and make the problems shrink.
I'm fighting to become who I am and who I want to be.
Soon enough the fight will be worth it when I am free.
Free from the strict plain life I began to live as a young child.
Before the trouble started everything was just a game and life was very mild.
Times kept on changing and now nothing seems fair.
Sometimes it really seems like nobody cares.
It feels like nobody pays attention to what is best for me.
No one cares about what I think about the way some things should be.
I'm becoming my own person with the help of new friends.
But in my house with my family, I am on my own.
In my home it's as if my potential will never be known.
I think about so many things that I cannot say, things I have to keep in.
The guilty feeling eats away at me which makes my thoughts deepen.
I know soon I will push through.
To become who I am and what I'm meant to be as long as I stay true.
Truw to myself because I am not my brother.
I am making everybody look at me for me.
Now everyone can finally see.
My name is not Peyton, I am just Sydney.
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